tryingtobeamanofgod

My name is Dwayne Peterkin. I was re-baptized April 2011 and since then I have been doing my best to obey the Lord Jesus Christ and do his will. In this sinful world IT IS NOT EASY to stand up for God. You'll be tested, friendships may fall by the wayside, old habits will fade away. I hope that as I share my Faith Walk, others are encouraged on theirs. I hope you join me on this journey.

Expiration Date

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I can’t believe that this is my first post of 2014.  I have been growing in the Lord while I have been away from you but I feel like there are not enough hours in the day. (can someone relate?)  Nevertheless I miss sharing with you all about God’s goodness and I have had this topic on my mind and I had to get this post out.

In my growth group tonight we talked about how the disciples woke Jesus up in the boat in the midst of the storm and they thought they were going to die and they said to Him: “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” He got up , rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet, Be still!” The wind died down and was completely still.  He said to His disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” – Luke 4:38-40 

Whatever you are going through has an expiration date. It won’t last forever.  “This too shall pass!” It is so hard to see the outcome of a situation when you are in the midst of it.  There are so many sayings that I can insert here…”There is light at the end of the tunnel”, in Jamaica they say “one day, like one day”, etc. (You get my point.) Anything God brings us to, He sees us through. We need not worry how big the storm is, we will make it through whatever it is.  All we need to have confidence in our God and our faith.

How many storms in your life has God seen you through? 1? 2? 10? more? So why when the storms of finances, broken relationships, lost jobs, foreclosures, etc. come our way do we  get afraid and lose our faith? We panic, we worry, we forget the loving God we have that will see us through the storm if we just be quiet and be still.  Friend, we serve a mighty God and He has the power to command the wind and the waves in our lives to be still (and they will obey!)

It is so nice to know that in the midst of the storm, Jesus is right there with us and that all we have to do is call on Him and He will make it alright. Why stress yourself out and worry over things you cannot control. Call on Him in the storm, and I promise he won’t let you down. I leave you with the words of Ephesians 3:20,21 – Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us,to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen. 

Until the next time, I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod.

Blessings!

 

The Debt I Can’t Repay

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The last 24+ hours have been so amazing, more than that I can say in the last few months I have watched the Lord make major moves in my life and I am so thankful.  The apostle Paul stated many times that he would not boast of his works but he would boast of his shortcomings in the Lord.  By doing this, we minimize ourselves so that God can be glorified.

First I must say, The Lord provides! In previous posts I spoke of how God placed me in my apartment when I wasn’t working (and by His grace I’m still in it!) and He provided someone to furnish it for me.  (Amen!)  While I was given a bedroom set, I still needed a bed.  So It’s been a few months and I’ve never gotten around to getting the bed.  I’ll get back to that.

So now I’m working in Orlando so my commute is 85 miles each way. I had to sell my car just before getting laid off so I’ve been driving my dad’s old Jaguar which is nice, but not for commuting (93 Octane – 19MPG hwy if lucky)  so I need my own car. I’ll get back to that. If I’m not driving the Jaguar, I’ll drive my Mom’s car when she doesn’t need it.  I was driving her car today and the car was vibrating in the front and the vibration was getting worse as I was going to work so I was like “Lord just let me get to work and back today”.  (The Jag needs tires so I’m not trying to drive it until payday).  I’ll get back to that.

I’m transparent and some of you who read this know me. So since I’ve been rebuilding my life and finances for some time now and I was $2,000 from being debt free when I was unexpectedly laid off. (does anyone expect to be laid off?)  So it has been my goal to be debt free for some time and once again I’m very close to it. No credit cards, no car payments, no loans, you get the picture. Just a couple bad bills hanging around.

Proverbs 22:7 says “The rich rule over the poor, and the borrower is slave to the lender.” You see friends, God wants us to be lenders not borrowers!  Like I said I’ve been on that for some time now.  I’m still living check to check but I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I’m no stranger to final notices, past due, disconnect, etc.  So I dream of what it would be like to be debt free.  Finally in the black! No one asking me for nothing! Calling my own shots!  Bills is getting paid! (I know how I said that!)

Getting back to the story…

So I have not been sleeping on a Sealy but where I am in life right now that is not in the picture, it’s coming, just not in the budget right now but my body has been saying “make it happen!” Saturday after I came from church I started to get the mail from my mailbox but I was like whatever is in there can wait it’s the Sabbath so it’s my day of rest and that’s not important.  Sunday afternoon I go to check the mail and there is a sign in the kiosk saying “Free Queen Size bed and frame”  I call and it’s available so I went and got it!  (1)

So here I am the week of payday or “broke week” as some may say and I’m just trying to make it to Friday. (Insert cat picture hold on Friday’s coming!) I not trying to drive the Jag because I need tires so I drive my mom’s car and the tires are vibrating.  I make it to work and the ride is slow and bumpy going home. I’m like “Lord just let me make it home!” Thankfully I make it home and I’m thinking about tomorrow. I pass by the tire shop and no cars are in the bays! They are about to close and I ask the guys can you put my good tires in the back on the front? He said we’ll look at it.  Turns out the tire is separating so it has to be replaced.  So I say “great I have no money for this!” The manager suggests putting on the spare but I am not driving almost 200 miles roundtrip on a donut tire.  He looks at me and says to his worker “look and see if there’s anything in the back”.  So the worker finds a used tire and the manager says “we’ll put that on for you”.  So I’m still thinking how I’m going to pay for this. After they finish I ask how much will it be. The manager shakes my hand and says “get out of here!” The worker says “Happy Holidays” (2)

So one of the guys from the church that we always talk cars tells me “Dwayne, I just bought a new Honda I got a great deal on it!   I said “nice did you trade in your Civic for it?”  He says “no I got such a good deal on the Accord I didn’t have to.  I thought you might be interested in it! It’s the HX model made for high mileage…40+MPG! (3)

I had some furniture in storage that I had taken to a consignment store a couple months ago. It’s been there so long I almost forgot about it and a week or so ago I prayed the Lord for someone to buy it.  I came home tonight and there is a check in my mailbox for the furniture! (4)

I am so in debt to Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior first for dying on the Cross, and for the ways in which He looks out for me… even in the small things! I CAN NEVER REPAY HIM!  He hears me when I pray, He knows what I need before I even ask!  God is awesome!

Since I got this new job I have for the first time in my life been able to consistently pay my tithe and He keeps blessing me over and over and taking care of me. Malachi 3:10 says Bring all the tithes into the storehouse so there will be enough food in my Temple. If you do,” says the LORD of Heaven’s Armies, “I will open the windows of heaven for you. I will pour out a blessing so great you won’t have enough room to take it in! Try it! Put me to the test!

I don’t say all this to say God is like a genie in a bottle or if you believe in Him he gives you things.  I say this all to give Him the glory for what He has allowed me to do for Him as I have given him charge of my life and that He takes care of those who put Him first.

He died for us so we can live for Him!

God is real and God is Love I say to try Him….You’ll be in debt!

Until later, I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod.

Blessings!

 

God Smiled at Me II

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After reading  a post (click post to read) from fellow blogger Prodigal Daughter, I had to relate my experience last night.  I  was fasting last night and as I work nights, I had to take a few breaks and go outside to pray.  Each time I went out the moon was out and your could see the stars.  Around 4:00am I went out and it was overcast.  As I looked to the sky and prayed, there was an opening in the clouds just enough for the moon to be viewed. It looked like an eye was looking at me. The eye of God!  (A little like the picture I took above but a smaller opening).

Another time when I was truly going through some difficult times, I was driving my convertible top down on a beautiful day and playing christian radio.  As I pulled into my parents driveway I noticed a few small clouds on a virtually cloudless day.   As the 3 small clouds passed they came together as Paul Baloche’s Glorious was playing the clouds formed the face of God and was looking directly at me!  The words of the song the sun on my face and the image the clouds made in majestic high definition gave me one of the greatest feelings I’ve ever experienced.  All I could do was let the tears flow and I said to God “i see you!”

Friends seek your Heavenly Father.  God truly sees us and will make His presence known when we seek Him and ask Him to reveal Himself to us.  That can only happen when we are in tune with Him and have that deep relationship with Him. He reveals Himself in His Word which is the Bible and in everything around us if we are open and able to see Him. It is so important to have time for devotion to meditate on Him.  Make time for Him, submit to Him and he WILL smile at you…Try it! He’s waiting…

Thank you Prodigal Daughter for making me appreciate these experiences even more!

Until Later…I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod.

Blessings!

Dwayne

He Will Not Leave You or Forsake You

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I can’t believe it’s been 3 months since I last posted.   I needed to write this update to proclaim God’s goodness.  The Lord provides and I thank Him for providing me a job.

The last 3 months were not easy but sometimes God makes us rest.  Sometimes he needs to break us down or tap us on the shoulder to remind us of our need for Him and our dependence on Him.   My goal was to continue to post during the storm, but looking for a job was a job and after being in front of the computer for so long each day, the last thing I wanted to do was blog.  I had good intentions, no follow through.  My apologies!

My prayer throughout these past month’s has been for God to open the door He wants me to go through and close all the others.  He did precisely that.

The job I took was in all honesty not my first choice.  As a matter of fact I wasn’t trying to take this job at all.  Let me explain.

You see the last job I had was an almost $20,000 pay cut for me, but I took that job because of family needs at that time.  The job I ended up taking,  I was called for and actually interviewed for it a month before I was laid off.  It was a local opening working at night,  and I thought it would be a great side job for extra income, the pay was no where near the salary I was willing to work for for a full time position.  It didn’t pan out and they did not offer me the job.

Then I got laid off.  I pounded the pavement, (or should I say surfed the internet!)  After a few weeks, I was pretty much promised a job after an interview that would have put me back in the salary range that I was used to, BUT it would have been a 2 hour commute each way.  I didn’t care though – I’d be back where I used to be salary wise. Then the side local side job I wanted called me back but I didn’t want to take the local job at night for what they were paying.  At last minute (as God would have it) they put that position on hold.

As I was  debating and praying if I should take the local job.  I was like “God,really? A $20,000 pay cut again? Nights?”  But when you pray and ask God for something and he provides it,  you can’t say “God I don’t want this one”  There were possibilities for other offers and contracts for way more money but they were all out of town (some out the country!) But the Lord provided this position and it’s just 8 miles down the road.

God works in mysterious ways.  After three months that job called me again because they hired a few people in that time that didn’t work out.   Originally I was going to do it as a side job but only God knew that it was going to be my job.

We never know what God has planned for us or how He will work things out in our favor.  One of my favorite Bible quotes is  Jeremiah 29:11-13:

 11For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. 12In those days when you pray, I will listen. 13If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. (NLT)

Dueteronomy 31:8 says: The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” (NIV)

So I trust and I wait to see why He has me where I am.  Living a submitted life provides much adventure because you never know what the day will bring,  You can be assured that God goes before you and knows what your day will be before you even wake so we need to trust that whatever may come, He has allowed it and will work it out for our good.

This is easier said than done.  It is hard to understand for us as humans because we cannot see the future.  He who holds time in His hand knows and it will be revealed to us in His time not ours.  One thing I know is that during my time of unemployment  He never left me. He never abandoned me.   My gas tank was never full, but it was never empty.  The refrigerator was never stocked, but I never went hungry.  I had no money for the things I wanted, but I had what I needed.   The Lord provides.

Living life on God’s terms and not your own is not easy but it’s humbling and rewarding at the same time.  You appreciate things more and you do more with less.  I’m thankful for His blessings and his constant refining process in my life.

Stay encouraged my brothers and sisters for Emmanuel (God with us) remains true to His promises Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.

Until later, I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod.

Blessings,

Dwayne

 

Praising Him in the midst of the Storm

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Hi Friends! It’s been a little while since I’ve posted. I’ve wanted to post so many times and I may have let some good stuff get away.  I’ve always said that this life is a journey, a faith walk, a spiritual walk, and that I have to go back and read my own words sometimes.

That being said I’ve been (and I am being) tested everyday.  The good thing is that I have the victory, because I know who goes before me everyday.  I  was laid off from my job unexpectedly about 3 weeks ago, (does anyone really expect it?) and as it came, rather than be mad at the world, I gained so much peace from it.

You see, because of my connection with God, and through the time I spend with Him, I realized that he was preparing me for such a time as this.  With all that I have been asked to do for His work, I am so comfortable with Him closing doors for me and taking me out of situations he doesn’t want me in.  I know that when your desires are in tune with God’s will, He will take care of all your needs.

The peace that passes all understanding is an amazing thing when you truly experience it.  The world expects you to act and react in a certain way, yet when you have a true relationship with your Heavenly Father, you have a confidence that cannot be tested. For some it is beyond comprehension.

I wanted to put this out there in the Blogosphere and have it on record right now that I am praising Him in the storm.  I know he won’t take me halfway through the storm and  let me drown or be defeated.  I know that he will see me through it and that I will make it to the other shore and be on solid ground.  I’m putting this out there from now so when my trials are over and my prayers are answered, my family and friends will have living proof that God will not leave us or forsake us.

Many of us will praise God and thank Him after our trials are over but how many of us praise Him in the midst of the storm? When the bills are due? When the money is low? When the employers aren’t calling?

Just because we don’t see God’s handy work does not mean He is not working for us.  He will ALWAYS do His part, but we have to do OUR part.  We need to give Him His time, His praise, His honor, as He so rightfully deserves at ALL times.   God is not a big ATM or Genie that we can just go to for withdrawals (we need to be making deposits!) and just ask what for we want.  He is our Heavenly Father that wants a relationship with us and wants to take of His children. He knows the desires of our hearts.

I’ll be posting again soon, because I know the Lord is going to do a great thing through me and for me to bring glory to His name.  For my prayer warriors that read this, pray for me as I pray for you.  Know that God hears us when we pray and He will answer.

I can go on and on, but I will save that for future posts… I will close with Jeremiah 29:11 – 13:

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.

Until later, I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod!

Blessings!

Dwayne

God’s Timing…

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My Devotion this morning spoke of Lazarus.  Lazarus was sick and near dead.  So Lazarus’ sisters Mary and Martha came to Jesus and said “Lord, the one you love is sick.”4When he heard this, Jesus said, “This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God’s glory so that God’s Son may be glorified through it.” 5Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. 6So when he heard that Lazarus was sick, he stayed where he was two more days, 7and then he said to his disciples, “Let us go back to Judea.” John 11:3-7

When He arrived Martha  said to Jesus “Lord if you had been here my brother would not have died” (v. 21) 

Jesus loved Lazarus as well as Mary and Martha.  Notice that as much as He loved them, he did not rush to go save him.  He had a plan.  Jesus purposely delayed going so that Lazarus would die, (and be dead and stinking for that matter.)  He had to make sure that this was the case so that His miracle could be performed.

My brothers and sisters, whatever you are going through now, God allows it so that His miracles can be performed.  Things may be dead and stinking, but like Mary, Martha, and Lazarus, he loves us.  He may be delaying His work but He has not forgotten us or forsaken us.

Let us not lose faith in our Lord and Savior or be like Martha and wonder where God is in the midst of our troubles but let us trust in Him ALWAYS and wait in confidence for Him to work His miracles in our lives!

Until later, I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod!

Blessings!

Reblogging….Blessings!

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At this the Easter weekend, I felt the need to post this – Something outside of Easter Baskets and Easter Egg hunts…”the reason for the season” as it were.

The definition of the word PASSION according to Merriam-Webster is: a : the sufferings of Christ between the night of the Last Supper and his death b : intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction and d : an object of desire or deep interest

Oh how God loves us! One of the most quoted verses in the Bible is John 3:16 – “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”  I always put John 3:17 with it because it really completes the whole thought and the concept of salvation. “For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world…

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