tryingtobeamanofgod

My name is Dwayne Peterkin. I was re-baptized April 2011 and since then I have been doing my best to obey the Lord Jesus Christ and do his will. In this sinful world IT IS NOT EASY to stand up for God. You'll be tested, friendships may fall by the wayside, old habits will fade away. I hope that as I share my Faith Walk, others are encouraged on theirs. I hope you join me on this journey.

Archive for February, 2012

Trusting in the Lord…

“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”  – Proverbs 3:5,6

Welcome Back Friends,

I grew up hearing and saying those words in Proverbs for many years, and to be honest, I had not really  put that in to practice until last year.  You see I’ve always heard “Trust God!” “Cast your burdens on the LORD” but I was doing it wrong.

I was giving it to God and taking it right back.  When you truly cast your burdens on him – that bill, that situation at work, that relationship issue, etc. you have to leave it there.  Bring your burdens to the Cross and nail them there!! Nail them so you can’t take them back.

My oldest sister once told me “God doesn’t need your help, stop trying to help God out!” and it made so much sense.  How many times have you prayed and asked God for something and got right up off your knees and started worrying about it?  I’ve always heard “If you pray don’t worry – if you worry don’t pray!”

Matthew 11:30 says “For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

As I get in to the Final part of My Story (which will be part 4) I will explain that I was going through my Separation, my father was about to pass, I was about to leave a secure job to start a new one that I was not too certain about, and my home was on the brink of foreclosure. (plus more that I probably remember right now). At the same time, I was studying to be baptized.

As I was changing as a Man and becoming a child of God, in the midst of all this turmoil, I was at peace.  When I told one of my coworkers at the time that I was getting ready to leave the job after 3 years and explained to him what was going on in my life, he said “Wow! Dwayne, I never would have known you had so much going on by looking at you!”

You see I had so much going on that I KNEW I couldn’t handle it and only God could and help sustain me during that time.  I held on to knowing that  he was going to make me a New man and that he PROMISED to take care of me.  To this day he has proven Himself so many times over and he NEVER dropped me, or let me fall.   I am sooooo in debt to Jesus.  First for dying for me, second for all he has done for me and for the PEACE he has bestowed upon me.

As I stopped trying to work out situations I had no control over, stopped worrying about bills, etc.  I gave God my heavy burdens and took on his easy yoke and light burden.  To this day when things come up in my life I say “God you know you got this right?” I don’t like to add to the pile I’ve put at his throne, but the Bible tells us to, so I do.

“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” 1 Peter 5:7

Friends, we have to TRUST GOD 100%.  Not 50% not 98% – 100%!  It takes time and believe me I do not proclaim to be perfect. I am definitely a work in progress, but I try to catch myself when I try to “help God out”.

HE can handle it, I can’t.  (and I’m good with that!).

This is a major part of my Faith walk, Trusting in the LORD.  I feel like I am so stress free sometimes, because I know how the old me was worrying about things and trying to make something happen.  (When all I was really doing was stressing out myself and those around me, losing sleep, and raising my blood pressure!)

Friends, I invite you to give God your troubles, I KNOW he will come through for you.  He never changes he said he will take care of us if we come to Him and HE WILL.  I am living proof of that!

Until later….I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod…

Blessings,

Dwayne

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My Story Part 2

As promised…Part 2 …..(I want you all to know my story so you can understand God’s work and my Faith Walk)  Please feel free to comment and tell someone else about the blog…Thank You and God Bless!

I received my drivers permit at 15 years old which was great as that brought with it the ability to explore further than my bike had previously taken me.  I was able to use the car to go on small errands, and on Sabbath, I was able to drive to church.   Jamaican parents tend to be very strict so I had to have some kind of justification to leave the house.  Therefore, most of my social life came from church related activities. As my friends and I started to turn 16, it meant it was time for your license, which meant you could drive without the need of an adult (mainly parents!).

This is where the firsts tastes of freedom came and seeds were planted.  At this age, your friends start to become more important and your family less important.  Things started to change.  The “I had to move from New York attitude” was gone now (although I knew someday I was going back) and I was starting to make new friends and settling in to my Floridian life.  I was now being invited to hang out with the school kids and I wanted to fit in so bad that I found that the Seventh Day Adventist life was starting to impact my social life.  I couldn’t go to parties on Friday nights and found myself making excuses for missing the party.

There were more and more baptisms at church and my Mom continued the harassment.  Finally I broke down and said I was ready to be baptized.  I began to study for baptism and my Pastor came by the house to study with me.   The Sabbath around my 16th birthday I got baptized and my parents were happy, (Mom was so happy.)   Looking back now, I think that I felt slightly different after being baptized, but I did not feel a true conviction or conversion.  I think I was happier that my Mom wouldn’t ask me to get baptized anymore.  That very night there was a big party and I was getting phone calls like “Dwayne! You hanging out tonight?” I was mad because it was a Saturday night and normally I would have been able to go but I was like “Nah, I just got baptized…How am I gonna go to a party!?”

So there I felt like “You’re supposed to be happy, why aren’t you?” I want to make it clear – I did want to be baptized, I just felt the same afterwards and I thought it would have been different.  So as time went by, I continued to go to church but I started to feel funny.

So to fast forward a little bit, my junior year in High School, everyone started applying to colleges, taking the SATs, the ACT’s.  I took my tests and scored very well on the ACT and I started to get letters from colleges coming in.  I was cool with some of the older students that were seniors or graduated and they would say “Go to University of Florida!” or “Go to Florida State!”. So I applied to both and got accepted to Florida.  I was like “Yes!! I am going to be out the house!”  Because the ONLY thing my mom talked about more than baptism, was getting an education.  I went to Florida for an orientation during my senior year.  One of my best friends was already going to school there so I told him what weekend I was coming and he said I could stay with him.  It just so happened that the weekend I went was Rush week.  That’s when all the Fraternities were trying to recruit new pledges.  Alcohol, Alcohol, Alcohol!

We went down Frat Row and got smashed! Drinking at every frat house, (That was the first time I ever drank.)  and finally ending up at a Toga Party!. I met a nice young lady there and we danced and spent the night together.  “What a weekend!” I thought.  “I can’t wait to go to college!”

Graduation came and went we all cried and said our goodbyes. Two weeks later I was at Florida.  I was all about getting my grades so I could pledge a fraternity and  I was always looking for a party.

(I managed to do a little school work along the way.)  As I would go around visiting people on campus, I came across some kids from church that I didn’t even know when there and they would go to church in Gainesville, and I was wondering what was wrong with them?? They are away from home and they go to church?!  They are weird! I think I hung out with them once.

Drinking turned into smoking and I was partying more than studying.  I never realized what it took to send me to school. The sacrifices that were being made for me that I was taking for granted.  I pledged the frat and then I was a brother! Wow! Now I have status…people know me, I’m the life of the party…  What a fool I was.  It wouldn’t last forever because along with the bills my parents were getting, they received my transcripts as well.  18 months after it started, it was over.  I lived with my sister for a while and started going to community college, where I pretty much repeated the Florida scenario.  Finally I ended up back at home and back at church.

I unsuccessfully tried to find work for about a month and got to the point I would just about do anything. I finally got a 2 week filing clerk position.  It ended up turning into something permanent and I wound up working nights after a few months in the Data Center which made it difficult to go to church (which I actually preferred).

After being out from underneath my parents for a while, it was hard to go back and live like that again.  After working nights for about 2 years, My brother in New York was getting married so I had to go up there for the wedding.  Finally I was going back to NY!! (even though it was just a visit).  While I was in NY I got the newspaper to see the salaries of Computer Operators  like myself and I could not believe the salaries!

I asked my sister in New York if I got a job there could I stay with her until I got on my feet.  She told me yes.  Two week later, I was in NY.

Up Next…Part 3 – New York

Be Still…

calm water

 

 

I have been blogging almost a year so I was looking at old posts and decided to repost this one…Blessings!

 

Hello Friends,

I will get back to Part 2 of my story next post –  I promise.

The past 3 mornings as I have gone out to my car to go to work, there has been a bird in my neighbors tree that  sings the most beautiful song.  (I think I’m going to try and record it).

The first day I noticed it and said “that’s a pretty sound”.  Other than the bird it was quiet that morning.  I thought it was a one time thing and then I heard it again on the second morning. I thought “wow that’s that bird again”. This morning as I heard the bird I said “Good Morning Bird”

This morning when I woke up for some reason two words came to me..”Be Still”  (Now if you read my other posts you’ll know that I will say that was the Holy Spirit speaking…)

1 Kings 19:11 NLT says “Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the LORD told him. And as Elijah stood there, the LORD passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake.”

1 Kings 19:12 KJV says “And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.”

Can you hear that Still Small Voice? Do you hear that bird in the mornings? Many times we may say that the Lord doesn’t speak to us.  I believe when we are listening for him we can hear him.

I have not had cable TV in my house for about 4 weeks now. Originally it was off for a day because I was going to pay the bill on Payday.  Then the car broke down, etc.  so paying the cable bill kept getting put off. It has been a great blessing, because the time I would have spent watching TV, I spend studying the Word.  Now don’t get me wrong I am not saying “Cut off the Cable!”  what I am saying is sometimes we need to MAKE TIME for God.  Some times we need to be still!

Psalm 37:7 says “Be still in the presence of the LORD, and wait patiently for him to act. Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes.”

Many of us are going through hard times and its easy to look at someone else and wonder why they have life so good and we are struggling, unemployed, in debt, going through a divorce, foreclosure,etc.  Before you work yourself up I am here to tell you – “Be Still!”

Matthew 6:6 NLT  says “But when you pray, go away by yourself, shut the door behind you, and pray to your Father in private. Then your Father, who sees everything, will reward you.”

Phillipians 4:7 NLT says “And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”

Be encouraged friends…God loves you and will take care of you.  Trust in the Lord Always.  Don’t worry about ANYTHING in your life. Pray to your Father.

I leave you with this:

“Give your burdens to the LORD, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.”

Psalm 55:22 New Living Translation

Until the next time…I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod.

Blessings,

Dwayne

 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in your sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14 KJV

My Story Part 1

Hello Friends,

As promised, here is my story – so that you will know who I was, Who I am and see what God has done for me.

Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6 KJV

I was born to two wonderful God fearing  Jamaican parents and raised as a Seventh Day Adventist.  I was raised in a good home, my parents were married  for 53 years until my Father passed last July – and that was the first major death in our family.  At 43 years old, I have had no dysfunctional childhood things to speak of, no abuses, no broken home, no major hardships. We weren’t rich, but we grew up not wanting for anything.  I guess you can say in that alone, I am blessed.

I was “the baby”, the last of 6 children.  So not having a younger sibling to take care of I guess I was always used to being taken care of and as I got older in years, my brothers and sisters can tell you I “got away with murder”.  I guess as a result it created a selfish person, because I never really had to share, or take care of anyone.  As I grew older I would always do whatever pleased me.  Kind of provide my own entertainment.

My early education consisted of Church school up to 5th grade.  Then, I was active in Pathfinders Club, the Youth Choir, I was also an Usher.  Church was all I knew then and I never had an issue with it. (Other than waking up early on Saturday and missing Saturday morning cartoons!)

At the end of Junior High School, (two days after 9th Grade graduation) we moved from New York to Florida.   I think for the next year I hated my parents.  You see I was about to start High School with all my friends, I just got my first girlfriend, I was extremely upset to put it nicely.

The one thing about moving to Florida that was good was the fact that my nephew (who is almost two years older than me) was already living there.  He used to stay with us in the summers in New York so we were (and still are) more like brothers than Uncle and Nephew.

Still in my funk from moving from New York, it took about a year to get adjusted.  In that time I had stopped drawing, running track, etc.   I had to  make all new friends.  Yeah, I thought moving to Florida was the worst thing ever.  I was mad at everything and on top of all that I still had to go to church. (I think I was even mad at God for the move!)  I eventually came to terms with myself towards the end of 10th grade and figured since I was stuck in Miami, I might as well make the best of it. But I swore to myself that I was going to move back to New York one day.

I was starting to make friends in school and I started to realize that life was not all that bad.

Church was actually starting to get good too.  There were a lot of youth at North Miami SDA church and we were all tight.  We hung out in church, after church, it wasn’t too bad.  My Mom would always say to me “you see the other children getting baptized? When are you going to get baptized?”  Every baptism she would say the same thing… I was like “I wish she’d stop harrassing me!”

I think here is where things start to go left….

Until later, Be Blessed!

Dwayne

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer. – Psalm 19:14 KJV

Let’s get started…

Hello Friend,

Thank you in advance for reading…There are millions of pages of content on the internet and you are on MY page!!!  It’s an honor!…Let’s get started, I don’t want to waste your time.

If you read my introductory post you know a little about me and what I hope to accomplish on my blog.  I initially wanted to jump into my background and tell you more about me, but a quote came to me in a roundabout way today and it totally changed where I wanted to go in my second post.

But it’s a good thing – because deciding to blog was not of my own volition but inspired by the Holy Spirit. So its all good, he can change my subject, he can do that!

Psalm 139:16 says “You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.” (New Living Translation)

So based on that passage, God knows EVERYTHING we are going to do in our lives EVERYTHING that is going to happen to us before we were even born, so there is no such thing as luck or coincidence, it’s his plan. Being a Seventh Day Adventist, I don’t say “as luck would have it…”, “something told me…” or “what a coincidence…” etc.  I like call it what it is – when unexpected or unexplained things happen in life or a thought pops in your head, it’s the Holy Spirit.

Like I said before, I had what I had planned to write and God gave me what He wanted me to write about.

Here’s how it happened: Today I am telling one of my new best friends about what I think I’m going to write today and in our conversation he says, “let me show you what my Stepson posted on his Facebook page.”  Here’s what it said:

“On life’s journey faith is nourishment, virtuous deeds are a shelter, wisdom is the light by day and right mindfulness is the protection by night. If a man lives a pure life, nothing can destroy him”  

I researched and found out that it is a quote from Buddha. I am a Seventh Day Adventist until the day I die, but don’t get me wrong I think God’s truth will always reach us no matter the vehicle.  So I was like “Wow that is an awesome quote, I need to use that.”  My friend also said…”it would be cool if you could link that back to the Bible!”

So then to myself I’m like “Okay…so you were thinking you were going to teach and it looks like you’re getting schooled!”

Friends, that is what this blog is about! This is my journey! This is my Faith Walk!  I am still learning,  I have found that every day, if you make yourself ready to receive the Lord Jesus Christ, there will always be an opportunity to learn about Him and to share Him.  It’s an awesome feeling to gather these gems everyday.

I’m sure this could be done many ways but to the best of my ability and by my inspiration this is how I broke down the Buddha quote and related it to Scripture:

On life’s journey, faith is nourishment

Jesus replied, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry again. Whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.” John 6:35 NLT

virtuous deeds are a shelter, 

Tell them to use their money to do good. They should be rich in good works and generous to those in need, always being ready to share with others. 1 Timothy 6:18 NLT

wisdom is the light by day and right mindfulness is the protection by night.

But I saw that wisdom has an advantage over foolishness as light has an advantage over darkness. Ecclesiastes 2:13 God’s Word Translation

If a man lives a pure life, nothing can destroy him”  

For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ’s return. Phillipians 1:10 NLT

Writing this blog today was a blessing for me today and I hope you are blessed or enlightened as you read this.  Thanks again for reading… we’ll chat again soon.

My disclaimer: I AM NOT a Theologian, I’m not Preaching, I’m Just tryingtobeamanofgod….

Blessings,

Dwayne

The Introduction (My First Post!)

Hello World!

My name is Dwayne Peterkin and I am new to blogging.  I feel like I have been inspired by the Holy Spirit to start this.  First and foremost,  I AM NOT a Theologian.  I am a baptized Seventh Day Adventist, that is trying to share my story and my faith walk.  I pray that along the way, a person may read this blog and be inspired to seek the Lord Jesus Christ, read their Bible more, pray more, trust God more, etc.  If this blog accomplishes that, then it is has served its purpose.

As time goes by, I will relate to you who I was, and how I got to where I am today.

Briefly, I was rebaptized April 2011.  (Follow the link to see photos of me and my son’s baptism on our Lay Pastor’s blog)

http://williamdearnhardt.com/2011/04/

Since then, I have been trying to keep myself on fire for the Lord.  I think that writing this blog is going to be a great experience for me and I pray that anyone who reads it enjoys it and will tell someone else about it.

A friend of mine started a blog recently and I am so impressed with her and the effort she has put into it.   (See her blog here)

http://katsinSthekitchen.wordpress.com/2012/02/03/wings-and-snacks-and-things/

What was so inspiring to me is that she is in New York and had a reader post back to her from Brazil.  How amazing is that!?  The fact that technology allows our thoughts and feelings to reach from the comfort of our home to the 4 corners of the earth.  I pray my blog grows legs, and that someone is blessed somewhere as a result of something that they read here.

I will update this blog as often as I can but I will commit to make a post at least weekly.

This is the beginning and I hope you will come back and be inspired.

Blessings,

Dwayne

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer”  Psalm 19:14

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