tryingtobeamanofgod

My name is Dwayne Peterkin. I was re-baptized April 2011 and since then I have been doing my best to obey the Lord Jesus Christ and do his will. In this sinful world IT IS NOT EASY to stand up for God. You'll be tested, friendships may fall by the wayside, old habits will fade away. I hope that as I share my Faith Walk, others are encouraged on theirs. I hope you join me on this journey.

Archive for April, 2012

Step Outside the Comfort Zone…

Hi Friends, Brothers and Sisters,

It has been a few days since I last posted so I was anxious to get back and share with you all.  First of all Happy Birthday to my son and myself…we are one year old in Christ. Amen!

I have been reflecting on what has gotten me to where I am today and how I try  to be a better man of God every day.  Admittedly some days are better than others but each day I say as in Psalm 118:24 “This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”  No matter what can happen in a day if you follow the words of Proverbs 3:6 “In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” you will not have anything to worry about.

The Holy Spirit inspired me to write about being stuck in our comfort zone today. I feel like in this past year of my Spiritual life I have really gone out of my comfort zone.  In the past I was that pew warmer in church.  Have you ever heard that 20% of the people in church do 80% of the work?  well I was never in the 20%, I was always in the 80%.

When the sermon was over and the Benediction was done I was one of the first people out the door.  I didn’t want to talk to anyone, I was trying to do anything.  I put my couples hours in and I was out.

As the Holy Spirit worked on me over time and after Baptism, I have found that I have a need to keep that fire in me to keep me going.  As a result, I have found myself doing things I never would have thought of a year ago.  One reason is that since I have been born again,  I have not said “No” when asked to be of service.  I will tell you that I have been blessed in so many ways because of it.

I started doing the sound in the church on the once a quarter, then I started cooking for and going out to feed the homeless with a sister church, I started leading out in my weekly Growth Group, I was elected Men’s Ministry Leader and I am in a Disciple Makers group.  I had no idea I would be available and willing to do so much for the Lord.

I have gotten outside of my comfort zone and I find myself learning new things and meeting new people.  People I would never have met if I had said “no”.  As humans we are creatures of habit.  We can get up in the morning at the same time, where the same clothes, eat the same breakfast, take the same way to work, do our work the same way, eat the same lunch, etc.  (You get the point!)

Over time you will become a robot.  No feelings, no spark, no fire!.  Friends I encourage you to go out your comfort zone and see what happens.  Now I am not saying to go out and do something crazy, what I am saying is to trust the Lord and take a chance to speak to that homeless person, sit in another pew at church, speak to that visitor, that person you see all the time but don’t know.  Go where your heart leads you to. You just may find a blessing in it.

Make your life fresh and new.  What may have been working for the last 5, 10 or 20 years of your life may not be relevant anymore.  Putting God first is so much fun because if you allow yourself to be used, He will put you in amazing places and situations.

For example the other evening I meant to go to my usual gas station but for whatever reason I missed my turn and went to a different gas station.  As I got my gas and exited the station, out the corner of my eye I saw an elderly woman   pushing a shopping cart full of cans in the grass.  She was having a real hard time. So I took half a second to think of it and I busted a U turn so I could go and help her.  As I parked my car and started making my way towards her, I saw a woman in a Minivan who must have seen every thing that I just did and she smiled as she saw me walking in the woman’s direction.  I helped the woman get the cart to the sidewalk and offered further assistance to her but she said she just wanted to get the cart on the sidewalk.  She was soooo happy! She told me “God Bless You” and I told her “God bless YOU!” she smiled and went on her way.  All I could think of was Matthew 25:40 “And the King will say, ‘I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!’  

I was happy to help the woman, but I think I thought about the woman in the minivan and wondered what seeing that did for her.  Did she see the Love of God through me? Will she pay it forward?  It feels good to be used for God’s glory.  We are his hands on earth and in order to be used we need to go outside our comfort zone.  It doesn’t take much but it takes a willing heart prepared to be used.

I encourage you all to go outside your comfort zone in all areas of your life through Jesus Christ..you won’t know what you are missing until you try it.  Who knows you just may like where he takes you!

Until later….I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod!

Blessings,

Dwayne

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14

My Story Part 8 – Epilogue

Hi Friends,

It was not easy for me to write these blogs to have to relieve the things I’ve done and the hurt I’ve caused (with the risk of hurting those people again by writing this)  but I know that the Lord had a purpose for me doing this.  And as I see my story being read around the world, I know God is blessing.

I want to say thanks to all who read and shared my story.  I pray that someone is touched, changed, enlighted, or inspired by it and choose to seek or continue  their own Faith walk or relationship with God.

I do need to say that I wrote my story so that readers of this blog will know that I was not perfect, that I will never be perfect, (only Jesus Christ lived the perfect life) but through God’s grace I changed.  God can change anyone and that is the main point here.   I may not have gone into grave detail in some areas and may have gone too far in others but understand the greater picture…I did not go into certain details to protect the innocent but I hoped that I wrote it from a standpoint where someone could “insert self here”.

Some have asked what’s the end of the story?  Well I am living it and maybe one day down the road I will add another chapter or too.  You see friends, God isn’t finished with me yet.  He continues to mold me and make me and use me for His will.  For those that have asked,  I remain separated and the outcome is not yet written in stone.

I continue to seek the Lord daily and do my best to walk on the path that he has prepared for me.  Romans 5:1-5  is like a glimpse of my journey and where I am at in my life… “Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory. We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.” NLT

Brothers and Sisters, I encourage you to go on your Faith Walk confidently, know that if you let Him,  the Lord will lead you to where he wants you to be.  You may not understand the hows, and the whys, but if you really trust him, he   WILL take care of you.

“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Matthew 6:33 ESV  “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” Matthew 6:34 NLT

Live for Today in Jesus so that you will be ready for Him when He calls you home or when He returns. (Which ever comes first).

Now that this foundation has been laid, I hope you continue to read my posts as I share my walk.  You see I am not a theologian, I am not a Bible scholar, I am not perfect.  I am a work in progress and I am just tryingtobeamanofgod…

Blessings,

Dwayne

A Near Death Experience (Divine Protection)

“For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.” Psalms 91:11

Easter Sunday morning my son had basketball practice.(if you don’t know by now I worship on the Sabbath (Saturday) so the church league had practice on Sunday.)

It was a beautiful morning in the Tampa Bay area so I decided to put the top down on the convertible and have a nice drive into Tampa on I-275.  We arrived at the church gym for practice and also being that it was the second Sunday of the month that is the day we prepare food to feed the homeless.

My son practiced, I prepared meals and we had a great morning, the day was still as beautiful as ever and we had another beautiful topless ride on the highway home.

Later that day my mother asked me to drop by her house because my brother was in town.  Cool, no problem as she only lives a mile from my house.  It was nearing the time to take my son home, so and I got in the car and headed to mom’s house before we took I-75 down to my sons house.  My mom has a very small dip in her driveway and then there is a slight incline.  As I pulled in to her driveway  at all of 2 MPH, I heard a LOUD “CRACK!!”  My cars axle broke in my mom’s driveway!

Suddenly everything going on in my life did not matter, all I could think about was how I was riding up and down I-275 at 70MPH all day.  It was only divine protection and intervention that prevented that axle from breaking at any other point in the day.

My family has a tradition that we never travel without asking for Divine Protection from dangers seen and unseen.  I am thankful for my heavenly angels are on the job because instead of writing this post, someone could have been writing my obituary. (And/Or my son’s for that matter).

When I was at the Men’s Retreat last month the keynote speaker Pastor Pierre Eddy Laguerre spoke of Death with this statement:

“This aspect concerns life as well.  This aspect of Life is a reminder that challenges us to make the best possible use of each moment of our lives.”

I am glad I serve a Risen Savior that loves me and protects me.  It draws me closer to Him knowing that He is not ready for me or my son and that with the “bonus time” we have been given, we need to make the best possible use of it.

Friends, don’t waste time, don’t assume you will be here on this earth forever.  No man is promised tomorrow.

God has given us each a choice as to how we want to live.  I think for me Joshua 24:15 says it best:

“And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom you will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.”

Until Later…I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod!

Blessings,

Dwayne

The PASSION…

At this the Easter weekend, I felt the need to post this – Something outside of Easter Baskets and Easter Egg hunts…”the reason for the season” as it were.

The definition of the word PASSION according to Merriam-Webster is: a : the sufferings of Christ between the night of the Last Supper and his death b : intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction and d : an object of desire or deep interest

Oh how God loves us! One of the most quoted verses in the Bible is John 3:16 – “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”  I always put John 3:17 with it because it really completes the whole thought and the concept of salvation. “For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.” 

When we we were created, God gave us the power of choice.  We have to choose to follow him and accept his Gift.  You see there is nothing we can do to earn the Gift of Eternal Life we have to make that choice to accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior.

For me, I think that John 3:17 really describes the PASSION of Christ.  Using the dictionary definition of Passion illustrates that John 3:17 shows that we (man created in God’s image) are the object of desire for Christ.  He wanted to save us from Sin and Eternal Death so God sent his Son Jesus to live the perfect life here on earth and to be the perfect sacrifice so that we can be saved from Sin and have the opportunity to have Eternal life. He doesn’t desire one of us to be missing, but He knows not all will make that choice.

This Sabbath was Communion in my church.  In our communion service we reenact the ordinance of humility or the “foot washing” ceremony as Christ did before the Last Supper.  The washing of the feet was usually reserved for servants as it was considered a lowly task to do.  Imagine the King of Kings and Lord of Lords, humbling himself to wash the dusty feet of his disciples.

My friends taking part in that ceremony helps you to understand Christ’s Love for us.  Then to take part in eating the bread which is the symbol of Christ’s body and to drink of the ceremonial wine that is His blood.  It just puts you into  the zone of the PASSION.

If you have never seen the movie The Passion of the Christ  (click to see the trailer) I suggest you watch it.  It is very graphic but it had to be.  It shows what Jesus endured for all mankind.  If you ever need a Spiritual Reality Check, watch the movie.

When I see Easter watered down, marketed, and packaged for sales in stores, it really hurts me to know how people could just ignore what Christ did and want you to just buy Chocolate Easter bunny crap! (excuse my passion!)

Friends, we need to have a passion for Christ like He has for us.  All it takes is to say “YES” to his gift and plan for salvation.  We need to have that intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction for Jesus.

I can go on and on about this subject but I think you get my point. I hope you remember the PASSION.  If you have not chosen Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, consider it.  He has already died for you.

Remember brothers and sisters, I am not a theologian,  I am not a Pastor, I am just tryingtobeamanofgod.

Blessings,

Dwayne

My Story Part 7 – The Transformation

Greetings Brothers and Sisters….The Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary includes a section called the “Synonym Discussion”.

Synonym Discussion of TRANSFORM:

transformmetamorphosetransmuteconvert,transmogrifytransfigure mean to change a thing into a different thing. transform implies a major change in form, nature, or function. metamorphose suggests an abrupt or startling change induced by or as if by magic or a supernatural power. transmute implies transforming into a higher element or thing . convert implies a change fitting something for a new or different use or function. transmogrify suggests a strange or preposterous metamorphosis. transfigure implies a change that exalts or glorifies.
That being said…Let me continue to the final part of My Story – The Transformation.
So after coming home from North Carolina it was time to work on the marriage…continue to answer the difficult questions and try to explain my actions.  Not a fun time, but like I said before, the fun was already had and it was time for work.  I was so sorry for what I had done and I feel I was also mad at myself because of what I had done in North Carolina and that it made me have to come  clean about my affair years earlier.
I can say though it was a relief to not have to hold that secret anymore although it was like dropping a bomb on my wife.  I was blessed to find a job when I came back although it was 100 miles from home.  I gladly took it because although I had a  200 Mile commute each day, at least I was at home at night.  So my days were long and many days I was tired.  When I got home from work  I had to do some “mental sparring” with my wife at night so I would be mentally exhausted.  I would try to drink some nights but that never made for a good situation.
I was also struggling to go to church when I came back…(You know my Mom would ask me each week if I was going!) The times I did go to church weren’t too bad but I was one of those people who was watching the clock to see when the Pastor was done and I never tried to socialize. Spiritually I new I was walking the fence and I had to figure out – was I going to church to please my parents again? or was I getting something out of it?
One of my neighbors goes to my church and he knew I liked to make music and worked with the electronics, he asked if I could help out running the Audio Visual equipment at the church.  I said yes.  Little did I know that that was the start of my service in the church.
Time was going by and everything seemed to be on a treadmill, moving but not moving. My wife was getting more frustrated with me because I wasn’t relating to her and my points weren’t getting though to her despite my efforts.  I found I was really overwhelmed at this point in my life and through my job I decided to use the Employee Assistance Program and found a therapist I could talk to.
During this time my father’s health started to deteriorate and he was admitted to the hospital.  He was in the hospital for a week or so and through a lot of prayer he got better and was allowed to return home.
So not only was this time stressful for me it was stressful for my wife – so much so that it put her in the hospital as well. So there I was going to two hospitals each night to see my wife and father, after driving a 100 miles to work each day, trying to take care of the kids. Going to therapy. Once again my life was a wreck.
I started listening to Christian radio at this time and one day as I was driving down the highway headed to the hospital I heard a small voice in my head, Not the radio, not my thoughts, the voice said one word “Come!”  I knew that was the Voice of the Lord speaking to me the Holy Spirit spoke to me!!  I broke out in tears!! In that very moment my life changed forever!   That Sabbath when  I went to church I requested study for Baptism as I new it was time to stop walking the fence and give my life to God.  The person who took my prayer request to the Pastor was my neighbor who asked me to do the Sound! He said he was going to take care of it personally.
The next week my wife left the hospital and went home and my Father went home as well.  That same week I started studying for baptism and I asked my son if he would like to get baptized as well and he said yes.  He joined me in study. (Click HERE to see pics)
My Wife and I decided that it would be best to separate and not have me stay at our house so as to relieve the stress that was going on.  It really bothered me to leave my home but God works in mysterious ways.  I say that because during one of the worst parts of my life he allowed me to move in to my parents house as  my wife and I separated.  This was a blessing because little did I know that those months I spent at my parents house would be the last I would spend with my father.
So as I continued to go to Counseling, my Therapist suggested I find a Divorce Care group to join.  That sabbath when I went to church there on the bulletin it said “Starting Wednesday night – Divorce Care!…
My Father took sick again in the Summer last year and never recovered.  His passing and the passing of the Torch from him to me has solidified my walk in the Lord. (See my blog post Our Father Who Art in Heaven)
God was at work the whole way and little by little things have fallen in to place.  It has been almost a year since my son and I were baptized and we continue to attend church and do Sound.  We feed the Homeless monthly,  and I have been elected Men’s Ministry leader.   I see God’s handy work in my life and I thank him for my journey, and my faith walk.  I live for the Lord and I proclaim him to all I meet.  I am doing my best to stay on fire for Jesus.
This Blog is approaching 500 Views since I started it 6 weeks ago.  It is already being viewed in the United States, Canada, Germany, Slovakia, The Netherlands, Portugal and South Africa.
You see friends, God can use anyone he wants to to further his work.  God is the  Miracle worker able to Transform lives, hearts, and people.   Without a great conscious effort the Lord Jesus Christ, has taken the desires of drugs, alcohol and other addictions out my life,  he has changed my diet and I no longer desire unclean meats or shellfish, I remain a living testimony of His greatness and I can’t wait to see how he will use me in the next year of my life!
Romans 6:4 says “For we died and were buried with Christ by baptism. And just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glorious power of the Father, now we also may live new lives.”
“and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.”  Ephesians 4:24 New American Standard Bible
Blessings to you all and thank you for reading my story and experiencing my journey.  Until later, I am just….tryingtobeamanofgod.
 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14

The April Fool

Hi Friends,

Yesterday was April Fool’s Day, and I must admit I used to love it.  Those that know me know that I love to laugh and have a good time.  I was always a prankster and I used to love “getting” people.  Remember the sour gum? The dollar attached to the string? The buzzing handshake?  The squirting Flower?  The fake lottery scratch off?  The list goes on and on.  These were tricks on those that were not prepared,  those that were caught “sleeping”.

With age comes Wisdom.  Looking  at April Fool’s day in my new mindset,  It leads me to think of how Satan, Lucifer, the Devil (insert any name here) is the ultimate Prankster, the ultimate Deceiver.   He makes that car, that job, or that woman, or that man,  look so good!! He wants us to pursue those thoughts, or desires to attain that person or possession, he wants us to go down that road he made so that he can trick us and make us fall for it.  All this so he can laugh at us when we have to pick up the pieces from the damage he has done.  So he can enjoy watching us have to dig ourselves out of the ditch he has led us in to.

1 Peter 5:5 says Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:”

We need to stay focused in this world.  Through TV, Movies, and Music, there are so many ways in which we are subtlety, and subliminally deceived.  We need to stay alert because the old saying is so true that “If you fall for anything. You will stand for nothing.”

Christ is coming soon my friends and he tells us in His Word “For yourselves know perfectly that the day of the Lord so cometh as a thief in the night. 1 Thessalonians 5:2 KJV,

But the day of the Lord will come as unexpectedly as a thief. Then the heavens will pass away with a terrible noise, and the very elements themselves will disappear in fire, and the earth and everything on it will be found to deserve judgment. 2 Peter 3:10 New Living Translation

Brothers and Sisters, we need be alert so that we can stand in the Day of Judgment .  Let us not be the April Fool’s of this world. Stay close to Jesus Christ, seek him daily in your prayers and bible study so that you will not be deceived.  The things of this world are temporary.

“Don’t store up treasures here on earth, where moths eat them and rust destroys them, and where thieves break in and steal. Store your treasures in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy, and thieves do not break in and steal. Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be. Matthew 6:19-21

Be Blessed my Friends.  Until Later…..I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod.

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