The Do Over

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Today I posted on my Facebook page that at 8:17 AM I was already looking for a do over.  It was really a crazy morning at work and on a  Monday, it’s pretty much expected.  I’m also battling a cold so that doesn’t help either.

I miss that childhood innocence that if you don’t like what you’ve just done, or if the result of whatever you are participating in is not to your liking that you can just shout “do over!” and give it another try.

So today I left work after my morning meeting, ate some soup, and got back in bed.  I was thinking that this is about as best as I can get for a do over today.  But after I got real with myself and stopped whining (the whole world is coming to an end when I’m sick!) I realized that through Christ, I have gotten the biggest do over ever!

As I think of the man I was and look at the man I have become, I am truly thankful! Mind you this do over came with its share of pain to myself and others but nothing compares to the ultimate price  our Savior paid so that we can have a chance for a do over of our sinful life.

2 Corinthians 5:17 states:  Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

 What a privilege it is to have this opportunity! Jesus gave us the ultimate do over and  I am so thankful for it!  That is why I do my best to live like Matthew 6:33  says: But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Jesus gave His life for me so I feel that the least I can do is try to live this life the best I can….I know I can never repay Him, but the least I can do is try to do His work and His will, with the do over He gave me….

Blessings friends! I pray everyone who reads this is blessed and impressed to accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior and accept His gift of the do over!

Until later…I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod!



My Story Part 7 – The Transformation

Greetings Brothers and Sisters….The Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary includes a section called the “Synonym Discussion”.

Synonym Discussion of TRANSFORM:

transformmetamorphosetransmuteconvert,transmogrifytransfigure mean to change a thing into a different thing. transform implies a major change in form, nature, or function. metamorphose suggests an abrupt or startling change induced by or as if by magic or a supernatural power. transmute implies transforming into a higher element or thing . convert implies a change fitting something for a new or different use or function. transmogrify suggests a strange or preposterous metamorphosis. transfigure implies a change that exalts or glorifies.
That being said…Let me continue to the final part of My Story – The Transformation.
So after coming home from North Carolina it was time to work on the marriage…continue to answer the difficult questions and try to explain my actions.  Not a fun time, but like I said before, the fun was already had and it was time for work.  I was so sorry for what I had done and I feel I was also mad at myself because of what I had done in North Carolina and that it made me have to come  clean about my affair years earlier.
I can say though it was a relief to not have to hold that secret anymore although it was like dropping a bomb on my wife.  I was blessed to find a job when I came back although it was 100 miles from home.  I gladly took it because although I had a  200 Mile commute each day, at least I was at home at night.  So my days were long and many days I was tired.  When I got home from work  I had to do some “mental sparring” with my wife at night so I would be mentally exhausted.  I would try to drink some nights but that never made for a good situation.
I was also struggling to go to church when I came back…(You know my Mom would ask me each week if I was going!) The times I did go to church weren’t too bad but I was one of those people who was watching the clock to see when the Pastor was done and I never tried to socialize. Spiritually I new I was walking the fence and I had to figure out – was I going to church to please my parents again? or was I getting something out of it?
One of my neighbors goes to my church and he knew I liked to make music and worked with the electronics, he asked if I could help out running the Audio Visual equipment at the church.  I said yes.  Little did I know that that was the start of my service in the church.
Time was going by and everything seemed to be on a treadmill, moving but not moving. My wife was getting more frustrated with me because I wasn’t relating to her and my points weren’t getting though to her despite my efforts.  I found I was really overwhelmed at this point in my life and through my job I decided to use the Employee Assistance Program and found a therapist I could talk to.
During this time my father’s health started to deteriorate and he was admitted to the hospital.  He was in the hospital for a week or so and through a lot of prayer he got better and was allowed to return home.
So not only was this time stressful for me it was stressful for my wife – so much so that it put her in the hospital as well. So there I was going to two hospitals each night to see my wife and father, after driving a 100 miles to work each day, trying to take care of the kids. Going to therapy. Once again my life was a wreck.
I started listening to Christian radio at this time and one day as I was driving down the highway headed to the hospital I heard a small voice in my head, Not the radio, not my thoughts, the voice said one word “Come!”  I knew that was the Voice of the Lord speaking to me the Holy Spirit spoke to me!!  I broke out in tears!! In that very moment my life changed forever!   That Sabbath when  I went to church I requested study for Baptism as I new it was time to stop walking the fence and give my life to God.  The person who took my prayer request to the Pastor was my neighbor who asked me to do the Sound! He said he was going to take care of it personally.
The next week my wife left the hospital and went home and my Father went home as well.  That same week I started studying for baptism and I asked my son if he would like to get baptized as well and he said yes.  He joined me in study. (Click HERE to see pics)
My Wife and I decided that it would be best to separate and not have me stay at our house so as to relieve the stress that was going on.  It really bothered me to leave my home but God works in mysterious ways.  I say that because during one of the worst parts of my life he allowed me to move in to my parents house as  my wife and I separated.  This was a blessing because little did I know that those months I spent at my parents house would be the last I would spend with my father.
So as I continued to go to Counseling, my Therapist suggested I find a Divorce Care group to join.  That sabbath when I went to church there on the bulletin it said “Starting Wednesday night – Divorce Care!…
My Father took sick again in the Summer last year and never recovered.  His passing and the passing of the Torch from him to me has solidified my walk in the Lord. (See my blog post Our Father Who Art in Heaven)
God was at work the whole way and little by little things have fallen in to place.  It has been almost a year since my son and I were baptized and we continue to attend church and do Sound.  We feed the Homeless monthly,  and I have been elected Men’s Ministry leader.   I see God’s handy work in my life and I thank him for my journey, and my faith walk.  I live for the Lord and I proclaim him to all I meet.  I am doing my best to stay on fire for Jesus.
This Blog is approaching 500 Views since I started it 6 weeks ago.  It is already being viewed in the United States, Canada, Germany, Slovakia, The Netherlands, Portugal and South Africa.
You see friends, God can use anyone he wants to to further his work.  God is the  Miracle worker able to Transform lives, hearts, and people.   Without a great conscious effort the Lord Jesus Christ, has taken the desires of drugs, alcohol and other addictions out my life,  he has changed my diet and I no longer desire unclean meats or shellfish, I remain a living testimony of His greatness and I can’t wait to see how he will use me in the next year of my life!
Romans 6:4 says “For we died and were buried with Christ by baptism. And just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glorious power of the Father, now we also may live new lives.”
“and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.”  Ephesians 4:24 New American Standard Bible
Blessings to you all and thank you for reading my story and experiencing my journey.  Until later, I am just….tryingtobeamanofgod.
 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14


Hello Friends,

Peace and Blessings! I will be going away to a Men’s Retreat this weekend so I will not Post again until next week.  I am certain that I will be blessed and ready to share when I return.

As I am preparing myself to receive God’s blessing this weekend, I wanted to share an excerpt from The Great Controversy by Ellen G. White.

“As the mine has rich veins of gold and silver hidden beneath the surface, so that all must dig who would discover its precious stores, so the Holy Scriptures have treasures of truth that are revealed only to the earnest, humble, prayerful seeker. God designed the Bible to be a lesson book to all mankind, in childhood, youth, and manhood, and to be studied through all time. He gave His word to men as a revelation of Himself.  Every new truth discerned is a fresh disclosure of the character of its Author.  The study of the Scriptures is the means divinely ordained to bring men into closer connection with their Creator and to give them a clearer knowledge of His will. It is the medium of communication between God and man.”  The Waldenses Page 29

Friends, I encourage you to read your Bible every day.  There is a wealth of knowledge there waiting to be discovered.  I once heard some children say the Bible is: the Best Instructions Before Leaving Earth.

So true!  Check the link on this site for the Online Parallel Bible.  It has several versions of the Bible there so you can find the one that works the best for you.  It is searchable and a great tool.

Yes, the Bible is the best tool you can ever have.  It can Unlock secrets, Open Hearts, Open Minds, Protect you from Evil,  Reveal the Truth and so much more! Act now and God will pour out not one – but a double portion of the Holy Spirit, He can Change your life in an instant, but call on him now because this offer is for a limited time!

Seriously Brothers and Sisters, be encouraged and read your Bible Daily. Prayer and Reading the Bible are the Keys to communication with our  Heavenly Father and we need to get into the habit of Daily study.

OneYearBible online is an excellent way to read the bible in a year.  You can download the app for the verses to read everyday…It’s awesome.  I encourage you all to try it, just start on the current date and start reading.  In one year you will have read the whole bible.

Be Encouraged on your faith walk friends….I will be back next week with My Story New York Part 2.   Until then, I am just tryingtobeamanofgod…



Trusting in the Lord…

“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”  – Proverbs 3:5,6

Welcome Back Friends,

I grew up hearing and saying those words in Proverbs for many years, and to be honest, I had not really  put that in to practice until last year.  You see I’ve always heard “Trust God!” “Cast your burdens on the LORD” but I was doing it wrong.

I was giving it to God and taking it right back.  When you truly cast your burdens on him – that bill, that situation at work, that relationship issue, etc. you have to leave it there.  Bring your burdens to the Cross and nail them there!! Nail them so you can’t take them back.

My oldest sister once told me “God doesn’t need your help, stop trying to help God out!” and it made so much sense.  How many times have you prayed and asked God for something and got right up off your knees and started worrying about it?  I’ve always heard “If you pray don’t worry – if you worry don’t pray!”

Matthew 11:30 says “For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

As I get in to the Final part of My Story (which will be part 4) I will explain that I was going through my Separation, my father was about to pass, I was about to leave a secure job to start a new one that I was not too certain about, and my home was on the brink of foreclosure. (plus more that I probably remember right now). At the same time, I was studying to be baptized.

As I was changing as a Man and becoming a child of God, in the midst of all this turmoil, I was at peace.  When I told one of my coworkers at the time that I was getting ready to leave the job after 3 years and explained to him what was going on in my life, he said “Wow! Dwayne, I never would have known you had so much going on by looking at you!”

You see I had so much going on that I KNEW I couldn’t handle it and only God could and help sustain me during that time.  I held on to knowing that  he was going to make me a New man and that he PROMISED to take care of me.  To this day he has proven Himself so many times over and he NEVER dropped me, or let me fall.   I am sooooo in debt to Jesus.  First for dying for me, second for all he has done for me and for the PEACE he has bestowed upon me.

As I stopped trying to work out situations I had no control over, stopped worrying about bills, etc.  I gave God my heavy burdens and took on his easy yoke and light burden.  To this day when things come up in my life I say “God you know you got this right?” I don’t like to add to the pile I’ve put at his throne, but the Bible tells us to, so I do.

“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” 1 Peter 5:7

Friends, we have to TRUST GOD 100%.  Not 50% not 98% – 100%!  It takes time and believe me I do not proclaim to be perfect. I am definitely a work in progress, but I try to catch myself when I try to “help God out”.

HE can handle it, I can’t.  (and I’m good with that!).

This is a major part of my Faith walk, Trusting in the LORD.  I feel like I am so stress free sometimes, because I know how the old me was worrying about things and trying to make something happen.  (When all I was really doing was stressing out myself and those around me, losing sleep, and raising my blood pressure!)

Friends, I invite you to give God your troubles, I KNOW he will come through for you.  He never changes he said he will take care of us if we come to Him and HE WILL.  I am living proof of that!

Until later….I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod…



Be Still…

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I have been blogging almost a year so I was looking at old posts and decided to repost this one…Blessings!


Hello Friends,

I will get back to Part 2 of my story next post –  I promise.

The past 3 mornings as I have gone out to my car to go to work, there has been a bird in my neighbors tree that  sings the most beautiful song.  (I think I’m going to try and record it).

The first day I noticed it and said “that’s a pretty sound”.  Other than the bird it was quiet that morning.  I thought it was a one time thing and then I heard it again on the second morning. I thought “wow that’s that bird again”. This morning as I heard the bird I said “Good Morning Bird”

This morning when I woke up for some reason two words came to me..”Be Still”  (Now if you read my other posts you’ll know that I will say that was the Holy Spirit speaking…)

1 Kings 19:11 NLT says “Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the LORD told him. And as Elijah stood there, the LORD passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake.”

1 Kings 19:12 KJV says “And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.”

Can you hear that Still Small Voice? Do you hear that bird in the mornings? Many times we may say that the Lord doesn’t speak to us.  I believe when we are listening for him we can hear him.

I have not had cable TV in my house for about 4 weeks now. Originally it was off for a day because I was going to pay the bill on Payday.  Then the car broke down, etc.  so paying the cable bill kept getting put off. It has been a great blessing, because the time I would have spent watching TV, I spend studying the Word.  Now don’t get me wrong I am not saying “Cut off the Cable!”  what I am saying is sometimes we need to MAKE TIME for God.  Some times we need to be still!

Psalm 37:7 says “Be still in the presence of the LORD, and wait patiently for him to act. Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes.”

Many of us are going through hard times and its easy to look at someone else and wonder why they have life so good and we are struggling, unemployed, in debt, going through a divorce, foreclosure,etc.  Before you work yourself up I am here to tell you – “Be Still!”

Matthew 6:6 NLT  says “But when you pray, go away by yourself, shut the door behind you, and pray to your Father in private. Then your Father, who sees everything, will reward you.”

Phillipians 4:7 NLT says “And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”

Be encouraged friends…God loves you and will take care of you.  Trust in the Lord Always.  Don’t worry about ANYTHING in your life. Pray to your Father.

I leave you with this:

“Give your burdens to the LORD, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.”

Psalm 55:22 New Living Translation

Until the next time…I’m just tryingtobeamanofgod.



 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in your sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14 KJV